my metathesis

You know how sometimes, certian words have a tendency to hold more weight? they just kind of stick out more in your mind? Here lately, the word "new" has had, for some reason, an unusual amount of pull on my brain.

today I think I heard the final chapter of the "new" sermon series in my life that I've been catching peice by piece, in random conversations and situations. I went to a luncheon with my mom today, and the speaker touched breifly on the term "metathesis". It's like something just clicked. and so much unraveled in my mind.

Sometimes words are so much more than letters put together in a certain order. Words can trigger subconscious emotions, burried thoughts. Words can embody the uncontainable, release the imprisoned. Hearing one certain word can complete the puzzle of a vision in your mind, and then bam! suddenly something huge -some incomplete thought- suddely becomes clear and complete. The world slows down to match the beat of your drum, if only for a moment. and every star in the sky shines perfectly in its place.

I feel like I have had a metathesis. My mind simply does not operate the same way. My heart has a slightly different rhythm. My soul is the same (of course), but the window has changed... I am looking through a new window. I have changed.

Everyone changes. Through wind, rain, sunshine, and snow, the pressures of this life leave their traces. What we allow to be on the surface of us will shift and adapt, go through damage and repair the most. but I do believe that the core of someone will always remain the same. You can't base your discernment, expectation, or love for a person on anything other than that core. Futhermore, no soul can find a true counterpart by simply glancing at the embellishment of another soul. You have to see the very core.

I'm not afraid of change. Change is only natural, only human. God never changes! so who better to control changes in my life than the one who is unchanging?


"every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." James 1:17

"Forget the former things, do not dwell on the past. For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland." Isaiah 43:18-19

He makes all things NEW.

drumroll, please!

The anticipation...
can you feel it? : )

I feel like my entire life is in a "drumroll" stage right now.
I feel like everything is building up to something. Something big. This feeling is present in so many areas of my life right now. I even find it hard to sleep sometimes! Don't get me wrong, this is a positive feeling of apprehension... it just gives me this urge to keep my eyes open, and stay on my toes.

"Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." James 1:17

God never changes. He keeps a steady beat, just like the heart inside of me. He is constant, reliable, unwavering. Solid and unshakable.

His rhythm is the backbone to all the others, never changing.

And I feel like all these little drumrolls are going to collide soon, in this one huge explosion of lights, colors, and sound, to create the rhythm my life has always been destined to have. My lifesong in the making. It's a pretty cool feeling.

I just can't help but to think... "life is good." : )

little things.

Baby steps... that's how all great things start.
Crawl before you walk. Walk before you run.

Little things really are what matter most. Honestly, the little things in life are what make it worth living. Little things create true happiness. Long-lasting, genuine happiness. From the outside looking in, what seems to be an insignificant, run-of-the-mill moment... could mean the world to the soul that it warms. What seems to be worthless... just might be priceless.

And what seems to be a baby step might just be the biggest leap you have ever taken.

And isn't it amazing how one tiny event, one small coincidence, can alter so much from that moment on?

"a coincidence is just when God decides to remain anonymous."

Have you ever looked back on a moment and thought... "if that had not happened... my life would be completely different today." And its like a domino effect. The changes pile up and your life is suddenly developing in a totally new direction. Changing at an exponential rate.

Don't slam on the brakes. Just take a deep breath. And baby steps.
Focus on the little things. Build strong foundations. Get the small things right, and the big things will fall into place. The big picture will apear right before your eyes, because really the big picture is simply a collage of all the little things.

well... maybe not so simple. but beautiful, nonetheless. Beautiful because it is.